I can never tell you enough how grateful I am to have you in my life. I never cease to be amazed at what a genuinely kind person you are. I am so lucky to have your love and I want you to know that I will always cherish our relationship. I will always strive to make you know that you are loved.
This Christmas was hard in some ways. I want you here. I feel wrong celebrating without you. It has helped alot being able to see you the last few nights. I love that we will see each other in the morning. I am also happy that we will have our own Christmas when you get home. I look forward to many Christmases in our future where we won't have any distance between us.
I want you to know that having you in my life makes me feel less alone. For the first time since my Mom passed away, I feel like I have a family again. That I am part of a family,not the only one responsible for the family unit. For the first time I don't feel the entire weight of responsibility on my shoulders. I trust you.
I have loved seeing you play games with the kids and hang out with them too. We are going to have so much fun. Thank you for understanding them and showing your kindness and love to them too. I will never forget the night of our first "date" when I looked over at you, our eyes met and you smiled at me about them teasing us. I knew then that you could love us. That you did. That you were just enjoying their company. I have never had anyone enjoy them as much as I have.
I am off to bed. I am excited that we are one day closer to the move. Even though I have a list a mile long, I am so happy it is coming so fast.
I love you, Sugar. More today than yesterday. Thank you for loving me. I am enternally grateful. Tonight my tears are of joy. That I have you to love.
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Sweets for my Sweety
I love baking at the holidays. I have certain recipes that I always look forward to. Ones that just mean Christmas to my family. Gingersnaps, sugar cookies, these gross snowball things that I only make every couple years to remind myself that they are not my favorite.
Today Jack and Annabelle helped me make some cookies to send to you. Unfortunately they were a little bit too much help. Belly spilled the flour and I had to guess how much to add to the gingersnap dough. They are a little too flat. They taste...ok. But not good enough for me to share with you. The Christmas tree cookies were good. Too good. We ate them all. So much for Weight Watchers today. It was all downhill for me after that chocolate milk. Five points! Yikes!
So, I will remake the Christmas trees. They are super fast, and super yummy. They aren't too sweet so I think you will like them.
I look forward to learning everything that the holidays mean for you and blending our traditions. I can't wait to be able to wake up on Christmas with you and see your excitement at your gifts. That is, if you have been a good girl :)
I love you! XOXOXO
Monday, December 8, 2008
10 things you may not know about me
1* Mandy and I used to gallop around the back yard pretending to be horses.
2* I hate sock donuts (I think we have covered this, but it is important).
3* My favorite teachers were my math teachers. And my 4th grade teacher, Miss Summers. She seemed serious about teaching us things. And she had us write her weekly letters.
4* I never drank when I was in high school. Even when I was in situations where I could have. Still not too much of a drinker.
5* I'm allergic to sulfa drugs, they make me swell.
6* My first car was a 1980 Mustang. It had a sunroof and I loved it.
7* I loved playing dolls almost everyday as a child. We would cook for them in our play kitchen, tie up little clotheslines between 2 chairs, and I was always the mom. Mandy could be the dad, or the dog. Not the mom.
8* I am scared of aliens and try not to think about their existence.
9* My second toenail on my left foot is weird. I hurt it as a kid on a merry-go-round. It has never been the same.
10* I wish I could take better pictures/look better in them. I look forward to this happening with you. Although, I don't think we are off to a great start! I want to have a photograph of every moment that we share together. They are all so precious to me.
I love you honey! I wish I could convey to you how much you are on my mind. And you are always in my heart.
XOXO
2* I hate sock donuts (I think we have covered this, but it is important).
3* My favorite teachers were my math teachers. And my 4th grade teacher, Miss Summers. She seemed serious about teaching us things. And she had us write her weekly letters.
4* I never drank when I was in high school. Even when I was in situations where I could have. Still not too much of a drinker.
5* I'm allergic to sulfa drugs, they make me swell.
6* My first car was a 1980 Mustang. It had a sunroof and I loved it.
7* I loved playing dolls almost everyday as a child. We would cook for them in our play kitchen, tie up little clotheslines between 2 chairs, and I was always the mom. Mandy could be the dad, or the dog. Not the mom.
8* I am scared of aliens and try not to think about their existence.
9* My second toenail on my left foot is weird. I hurt it as a kid on a merry-go-round. It has never been the same.
10* I wish I could take better pictures/look better in them. I look forward to this happening with you. Although, I don't think we are off to a great start! I want to have a photograph of every moment that we share together. They are all so precious to me.
I love you honey! I wish I could convey to you how much you are on my mind. And you are always in my heart.
XOXO
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
I get really jazzed about snowmen(and women)
picture coming as soon as my scanner decides to cooperate
While I was driving E to school today I saw the best snowman ever! Well, maybe not ever, but I was darn impressed. He even had a corncob pipe.
I love snowmen. They make me happy. I like the fun of making one, the joy of finding one, and the happiness they represent. Just good family fun for someone. They don't cost anything other than some time and exposure to the frigid cold.
The year before last, I gave Mandy's family a snowman-making kit for Christmas. It had an extravagant snowman pop-up book ( I knew she would keep it safe from little ripping hands), all the parts including sticks for arms to build a snowman spur-of-the-moment. Even a fake carrot nose and coal eyes. And what well-made snowman would be complete without a top hat and scarf? I bundled it all into a snowman bag so that they will always be able to go right to it and go play. I think I might have put in some hot chocolate also.
I have made many snowmen in my day. The one in this picture I made with my Mom. Emily was 3 or 4. Matthew was too little to really be out with us. It was BIG! I remember we had a heck of a time getting the middle part on top of the bottom. I can't remember if we had to build a snow ramp to roll it up or if we levered it up with a shovel. I remember it was a pain. Heavy snow. And lots of it. After we got it done, we took pictures of all of us around it. Then someone, probably me, decided we needed to make a sign saying "hi" to my sister and her kids in NY. So then we held up the sign and took pictures of us waving to them. We mailed it with a little cabin fever package. Coloring books and things like that.
Another snowman that I distinctly remember, I made alone. Well, not alone. I think I was pregnant with Matthew and Emily was out with me, but she was too little to help. I made the Statue of Liberty. I even went in and made a torch out of art supplies for her hand. For the crown spikes I broke off icicles and put them on the top. I filled a water bottle with colored water and sprayed her a greenish blue color. She was pretty cool.
I can not wait to have you here so we can build snow people together. Or snow creatures. Like cats? Or now that the kids are getting bigger and might not have that much interest in playing like that we might have to make some gruesome snowmen Calvin & Hobbes style. Those crack me up too. Where he would build them to look like his Dad hit one with the car. I think we need to do some recreations of those. Or we could make cats. Or a sunbathing lady. Complete with sunglasses.
I haven't been sledding in years, but there is a good hill for it here. I took the kids once and Matthew was still scared to go down by himself so he was riding with me. He was plenty old enough to go alone. So, once, when he thought I was going to get on behind him; I just pushed him down solo. He looked back at me with giant eyes, but then he loved it. He was the last one that wanted to go home. If I wouldn't have done that, he would be still riding with me probably.
I am looking forward to so much fun with you. I hope that these next 37-ish days fly by so that then we can get you here and can start all of the fun! Imagine how great you will look building snow-things in your beautiful,warm scarf all full of love!
I love you baby!
While I was driving E to school today I saw the best snowman ever! Well, maybe not ever, but I was darn impressed. He even had a corncob pipe.
I love snowmen. They make me happy. I like the fun of making one, the joy of finding one, and the happiness they represent. Just good family fun for someone. They don't cost anything other than some time and exposure to the frigid cold.
The year before last, I gave Mandy's family a snowman-making kit for Christmas. It had an extravagant snowman pop-up book ( I knew she would keep it safe from little ripping hands), all the parts including sticks for arms to build a snowman spur-of-the-moment. Even a fake carrot nose and coal eyes. And what well-made snowman would be complete without a top hat and scarf? I bundled it all into a snowman bag so that they will always be able to go right to it and go play. I think I might have put in some hot chocolate also.
I have made many snowmen in my day. The one in this picture I made with my Mom. Emily was 3 or 4. Matthew was too little to really be out with us. It was BIG! I remember we had a heck of a time getting the middle part on top of the bottom. I can't remember if we had to build a snow ramp to roll it up or if we levered it up with a shovel. I remember it was a pain. Heavy snow. And lots of it. After we got it done, we took pictures of all of us around it. Then someone, probably me, decided we needed to make a sign saying "hi" to my sister and her kids in NY. So then we held up the sign and took pictures of us waving to them. We mailed it with a little cabin fever package. Coloring books and things like that.
Another snowman that I distinctly remember, I made alone. Well, not alone. I think I was pregnant with Matthew and Emily was out with me, but she was too little to help. I made the Statue of Liberty. I even went in and made a torch out of art supplies for her hand. For the crown spikes I broke off icicles and put them on the top. I filled a water bottle with colored water and sprayed her a greenish blue color. She was pretty cool.
I can not wait to have you here so we can build snow people together. Or snow creatures. Like cats? Or now that the kids are getting bigger and might not have that much interest in playing like that we might have to make some gruesome snowmen Calvin & Hobbes style. Those crack me up too. Where he would build them to look like his Dad hit one with the car. I think we need to do some recreations of those. Or we could make cats. Or a sunbathing lady. Complete with sunglasses.
I haven't been sledding in years, but there is a good hill for it here. I took the kids once and Matthew was still scared to go down by himself so he was riding with me. He was plenty old enough to go alone. So, once, when he thought I was going to get on behind him; I just pushed him down solo. He looked back at me with giant eyes, but then he loved it. He was the last one that wanted to go home. If I wouldn't have done that, he would be still riding with me probably.
I am looking forward to so much fun with you. I hope that these next 37-ish days fly by so that then we can get you here and can start all of the fun! Imagine how great you will look building snow-things in your beautiful,warm scarf all full of love!
I love you baby!
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